So, I've now sent out 6 applications to various firms and jobs in New York, and I have yet to hear back from a single one. I think by the end of this week I can pretty much assume that I will not be hearing back from them. Discouraging?

Yes. Heartbroken? Yes. Am I finished? No.
I've been told that this market is horrible right now for any recent law grad, but for some dumb (egotistical) reason, I didn't think I would be affected.

One of my professors told me this past week that I have to keep in mind that the best and the brightest are all applying in NYC. And that there are tons of competitors out there, not just me, this latina, from Denver, who wants to change the world.

I know I need to keep trying if I want this to happen becauset this is my dream. I am so close, yet I feel so far away. But at what point do I stop beleiving that it is possible? At what point do we settle and say "you know what? this is good enough?" It's hard to constantly be chasing some elusive goal that you have no real method of attaining except for trying and trying, over and over again. And failing each time.

I've always been an optimist, but i'm tired.

i'm tired of trying.

i'm tired of chasing, i'm tired of rejection.

i'm just plain old tired.

I want to keep believing that it is possible.

I want to believe that it will happen.

I want to keep trying...

but at some point, i need to be realistic with myself and look at my options, here at home.

i'll keep trying.

but say a prayer for us, and send it out to the universe.

maybe that's what i need. ;)