Thank the heavens! We survived! I was pretty sure NYC would be hit first, with all the crazy that is walking around here, but nope. We all survived. I'm not going to lie though, I worried for a little bit when dark ominous looking clouds appeared out of nowhere while I was at a farmers market at Union Station. But then, it just rained. Nothing happened. I was relieved and ran home so that in case it did happen, I would be with my husband, wrapped in the fetal position, embracing like the old couple on titanic. On my way home, an older gentleman peed his pants as he sat next to me, and all I could think of was the idea that I probably sat in a puddle of pee and didn't even realize it. But when he stood up, I could see his bottom was completely soaked and he left a neat little puddle on the seat. Ah, yes, I am back in New York.
I am sorry I have not blogged in almost a week, but last week was hectic and the next 10 weeks are about to get a little bit worse everyday. I will officially start my bar preparation tomorrow at 8am. And by 8am, I mean I will roll out of bed, do yoga, eat breakfast, and start studying. My official class starts on Thursday, but I have assignments that I need to complete before then.
I am excited, nervous, anxious and scared. Which all translates to me having anxiety attacks and leaving the house to buy eight different types of cheese. (True Story). But I recover and realize that everyone must feel like this and that life will be fine. I am excited because this is the last and final chapter of law school madness. I can't wait to become an actual "professional" and start helping people. I've wanted to be a lawyer since high school, and now, it's time to prove it. I know it won't be easy, but I love challenges and I know this stuff (except for transactions, wills & estates and torts, because I never learned those subjects). But I will learn it again and master those subjects.
The hubs and I decided this weekend that I would also get an additional tutor to help me with my writing. I met an attorney on Saturday who told me that I MUST hire Dr. Mary Gallagher for essays because she was the only reason he passed. Then another friend of mine, who just passed the bar in February, also told me about her too and claimed that she was the reason she passed the bar the second time, as well. And finally, on Saturday, while I was at the farmer's market, a nice looking fortune teller lady, told me that apparently one of my guardian spirits yelled "ESSAYS!" to her and that they thought I needed to get more help on my essays. So.... we decided the whole universe was conspiring to send me a message and I will hire her for help with my essays. The down part is that it's going to cost us more, but we feel it is worth it. That's why I love my husband, because he supports me and all my craziness and loves me unconditionally. Couldn't ask for a better partner in my life.
I had to talk to him this weekend about what the bar study schedule was about to do to our relationship, and I asked him what he needed from me as I prepared. More than anything he said to not start fights (because sometimes I do that for fun) and to communicate. He always cares about how I'm doing, and he wants me to check in with him, regardless of the emotion that is taking over me at that time. Easy enough. We've been through worse, so this doesn't worry me. I know people who will completely separate from their loved one for 3 months, but I think that's a bit nutty, but hey, to each their own.
I will keep you posted on what I am feeling and doing, but I will not be posting as often, and I apologize for that, but I have to focus and not allow random distractions. I don't consider my blog a distraction, and I will post as much as possible. You've been with me throughout the entire journey, and now you will follow my bar prep, and you will get to wait the anxious reply as to whether I do or don't pass the bar.
I still have some preparation to do today, so I will leave you for now.
I hope you all have an amazing week!
