A breathe of fresh air

Thursday, March 31, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 1:49 PM
Thank god for dads.. :) I hate to tell my parents that I am so stressed out, but my dad called me today and we started talking and checking in with each other, and when he asked me how I was doing, I started to tell him that I was "fine." Just then, I felt that knot in my throat that always appears when I am about to cry, and my voice started shaking and tears began to flow and my nose began to sniffle!! He asked me why I was crying and I couldn't hold back and started to tell him how stressed I was and how tired I was. He sat there silently, then lectured me about not calling him if I needed money or anything else. You see, I never try to bother my parents with those kinds of things because they work like crazy and I've just never been that type of daughter, but this time, I couldn't hold back my tears. Damn you tears!! He assured me that all would be fine, it would work out and offered to pay for the remaining balance of my Barbri course!! Then I cried some more because he offered to help me and I felt so relieved and so thankful. I think I scared him when I started crying, but he realized that I was just emotional and that's how I get when I talk to him or my mom when I'm having a really crummy day. So.. at least there was a little beam of sunshine in my dreary day. Now, to go home, eat pizza, and go to sleep. I'll try harder tomorrow, that's all I can do right? Gracias papi. I love you so much.

Running out of steam...

Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 11:01 AM
eat in case of emergency Ugh, I don't know why, but today is one of those days where I am just over it already... I am tired, sleepy, sluggish and annoyed. Not really annoyed at anyone or anything in particular, but I think I am stressed and I am just realizing how stressed and tired I am. Not even my yellow rain boots can save me today! I can usually always find something to be thankful for, but this morning I woke up with a chip on my shoulder and wanting to call in to work because I was having a "gordis" day. You know those days where nothing seems to fit right and you look like poo. I also didn't want to go to work because I knew I wouldn't have much to work with so I figured why go. But nope, here I am, it's 2pm in the afternoon and I just want to go home and sleep. I realized that I am super stressed mostly because of our finances. I am still paying off some medical bills from my last gastrointestinal emergency back home. At the time we had horrible insurance and they only covered a teeny tiny bit of all the procedures I received and I still need to pay $700 for my Barbri course. It's not alot, but that coupled with the fact that we still need to purchase our tickets to fly to my cousin's wedding is really stressing me out. I'm trying not to stress out about it and make a better plan, but it's hard and I think I need better guidance on it. The hubs and I signed up for a great financial planning and budget site called mint.com, and so far it's been great. I am also super nervous as to what is going to happen next month when I longer have a job and start to prep for the bar. I've always had a plan and I've always had a job, and it just makes me nervous to not have one or to not know how much I will receive from unemployment benefits. I've tried calling their offices and they never answer, but I am pretty sure that it will be substantial pay cut. The good news is that I have an emergency "Worlds Finest Chocolate" candy bar in my drawer that I have been saving for a day like today. I think I might just have to eat it. :) I'm sorry for being a Debbie Downer, but I think I need to sleep. So tonight, I will go home, pick up a pizza and go to bed. A quiet night and a good night's sleep will help and hopefully I'll be better tomorrow. :)

Last Night....

Monday, March 28, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 9:58 AM
Was incredible! We had the opportunity to have dinner at the house of world renowned Mexican chef, Zarela Martinez!! Zarela is a mentor and a dear friend to our friend Gaby from Gabriela's Kitchen. It was a special night and it was an intimate dinner with only 7 of us there to enjoy the feast. And I do mean feast! We had a delicious Oaxacan Meatloaf (see recipe here) and some of the best mashed potatoes of my life! I like to think that I am a mashed potatoes connoisseur, so these were AMAZING. They had butter, cream, an egg, carrots, pickled onions, parsley, and onions!

On top of that, we made picadas, I say we because I rolled the little balls and I pressed them! Picadas are like little sopes and Gaby and Zarela made a delicious green tomatillo and avocado salsa that they placed on top of the picadita with sour cream and oaxacan cheese. They were so delicious! I ate like 3 of them while everyone else only had one. :)

It was a night full of great conversation, amazing food, and dancing and singing. Zarela is actually from Agua Prieta, Sonora, which is where Armando's dad is from, so we wonder if their families knew each other. She's so gracious and hilarious, and told jokes all night! She told us about her professional career, her personal life, and her determination to beat Parkinson's Disease. Her house is a beautiful 4-story brown stone in midtown Manhattan and is full of Mexican and Latin American art, retablos, and talavera. Oh the talavera was incredible. It was gorgeous and I realized that at some point, that's what I want my kitchen to look like. She also collects cloth napkins from every city and state she visits in Mexico, which means that I will do that now too! I already collect rebozos from the states that I visit, but now, I will start collecting napkins as well. Her house is incredible and the night couldn't have been better. Everything was so delicious and I felt honored to have shared in this experience with Gaby, Alex and Zarela.

I also must say that I especially enjoyed watching my husband dance with Zarela! They danced merengue, salsa, and banda! I loved it! I think that's when I appreciate him the most because he's such a kind and fun-loving person and I could tell that Zarela was really happy to have danced part of the night away. :) It was truly one of the best nights of my life, and now I need to go buy her cook books because her food was beyond delicious and all the recipes came from her books!

Washington.. Can you hear us? I know marketing firms can...

Thursday, March 24, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 12:34 PM

Latinos are an integral part of the history and culture of the United States. The American Latino story has been evolving for more than 500 years. Nevertheless, some Americans, including American Latinos, know little of our country’s rich Hispanic heritage. Written and oral narratives have not become part of the collective memory of our country. These stories have been untold, ignored, or altogether forgotten.


Today, The U.S. Census Bureau has released final findings of the 2010 Census. The final count: 196.8 million whites, 37.7 million blacks, 50.5 million Hispanics and 14.5 million Asians. What does this mean for our community and for the nation?

We have reached this tremendous milestone faster than what was predicted. This number does not account for the additional 4 million in Puerto Rico. As Latinos we now comprise 1 in 6 Americans and among U.S. children, Hispanics are roughly 1 in 4. The Census also shows that Latinos are moving west and into the center as well, reviving communities located along the bible belt. This is also iconic as Latinos are now calling the “heartland of America” home.


These details are of vital importance as our communities grow and as our children are raised as American Latinos. What other way is there to state it? As the great spoken word poet, Bobby Lefebre stated, we are the hyphen of American-Latino. We come from a rich cultural and historical legacy of our homelands, but are proud to be a part of this great nation. Even when we are hated and attacked, we still love this country and feel very much that we are an integral part of the fabric of American society.


In 2008, a record number — 9.7 million Latino citizens — reported voting in the presidential election, about 2 million more than voted in 2004. More than 1 million Latinos 18 years and older are veterans of the U.S. Armed Forces and our community registers more soldiers than any other group.


These population changes will shift 12 House seats and electoral votes impacting 18 states, just in time for the 2012 elections.


Our buying power allows the U.S. economy to thrive as American Latinos increasingly contribute, in a very significant way, to the development of the U.S. economy. The buying power of the Hispanic market in 2009 was $978 billion — larger than the entire economies (2008 Gross Domestic Product measured in U.S. dollars) of all but 14 countries in the world. This year, our buying power will hit $1 trillion dollars, and by 2013 we will contribute with $1.3 trillion.


Today, 25 percent of the nation’s children live in a Latino household; this group will play a vital role in renewing the American dream, giving it new cultural options. In all their diversity, American Latinos are keeping and enhancing fundamental American ideals and values of family, church, and patriotism.


However, as these numbers continue to rise, we must pay close attention to the response of the nation. Although these numbers are a celebration for us, these same numbers strike fears in xenophobic and misinformed Americans. We are seen a threat to American values and pride. Hate crimes might rise and a lash back will occur, as politicians and hate-based organizations, use this information to scare the masses. Now more than ever, as Latinos, we must continue to contribute to American society, as we always have and as we will continue to do. We have a power that is all our own and can change the course of politics and American society. We should yield it to the benefit of our communities by electing candidates in our communities and by standing up for our rights and the rights of our children. We must no longer be seen as second-class citizens for we have proved that we deserve our seat at the table as well.

Robert De Niro and me

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 6:17 PM
You can see De Niro in the brown trenchcoat!

Happy Tuesday! I was supposed to be in Washington, DC today, but due to some delays at work, I have to ride out tomorrow at 6am! :( Then I ride back home again at 6pm. Great.

This morning was hectic. I took a $30 cab from 96th Street because the trains were delayed and I couldn't miss my ferry. Note to self, never take a cab if I am that far uptown to my ferry. Waste. Of. Money.

Upon arriving at the ferry, I saw a cluster of people outside the ferry station and some cameras. I figured perhaps something happened and they were using our ferry station to broadcast. Did I mention I was late? So I ran towards the ferry and ducked around people, microphones, and cameras on my way to the ferry entrance. As I was about to enter, I heard people yelling and again, I had my earphones on, so I turned around and was swiftly grabbed by some security guy! The ferry security guard, Eric, saw me getting hauled off, and ran over to retrieve me and told them I was a government worker! Ha ha ha! The guard told him "handle her!" Then walked away. Again, super cheesy grin on my face, I told our security guard that I was so sorry and I thought it was news coverage. As we walked to the ferry, he whispered, "This is a De Niro movie. He's right there in the trench coat. Why did you run?" I told him again, that I thought it was a news conference so I just ducked the cameras to catch my ferry. He laughed and told me to get on the ferry.

Our security guard let me take a few pictures before I had to board the ferry. It was excellent and I'm glad they didn't arrest me or knock me out for running on their set. Although, I think if I would have actually seen De Niro first, I would have screamed and freaked everyone out.

Today was a tiring day, but for some reason, all I wanted to do was go home and cook. I wanted rajitas de chile con queso and shrimp and some grilled chile and cheese and the my grandmother used to make, along with tortillitas a la parilla. :) So, that's what I did. I came home and made my own feast for the hubs and Melina, my sister-in-law. She opted to eat out with friends but my dinner was very fulfilling and delicious. I think my grandmother and mother would be proud. There's something so calming about cooking and some days I love it, others I hate it. But on days like today, it is just what I needed.

A funny thing happened on my way to work. :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 10:22 AM
Happy Miercoles everyone!

We are half-way through a busy week and I hope all is well in your neck of the woods!

As for me, I was almost left without my lunch today, which is a protein shake because I got tired of my usual PB&J and I always carry a baggie of two scoops of protein in my bag. Just in case, I guess. In case of what I don't know but at least I have it.

Anyways, we always have police officers around South Ferry, my last stop on the train, searching bags that look suspicious, or overly large bags that look suspicious. This morning I thought it was a good idea to take my large grey bag because it was raining and I have an interview today that requires me to dress up. Obviously, I can't show up wearing my fabulous yellow rain boots, so I had to pack my heels, my notebook, planner, some makeup, keys, and whatever else I threw in there. My bag was quite large but nothing looked suspicious about it or me.

I stepped off the train and started my usual sprint towards the ferry so I wouldn't miss it. I had my purple jacket on with the hoodie over me to shield me from the rain. As I was passing the turnstalls, an officer screamed, "Ma'am, stop! Stop right there!" I could hear him over my earphones so being the metiche that I am, I glanced back to check and realized he was chasing me! So I stopped mid-glide and waited for him. I thought I might have dropped something or he wanted my phone number. :)

No, he asked me to accompany him to the terminal station so he could check my bag. I asked why and told him I was going to miss my ferry if I showed him my bag. He informed me that they do random bag checks and my bag was picked to be checked and that I ignored him and ran off. He became more suspicious as I started running up the stairs. I started smiling and that didn't help and he escorted me to their table. There, in front of all the other metiches, they began searching my bag. People must have thought I was the Latina Maria Poppins because they pulled out my shoes, my makeup, animal crackers, planner, markers, notebook and finally, my snack size pack of white powdered protein shake. He took it out, examined it and as he did, I couldn't help but smile my cheezy smile because I knew what it looked like! Or so I think I know from seeing it on tv. He looked at me and said, "Ma'am what's in this bag?" "Protein mix, for lunch!" I replied. He opened the bag, and I'm sure he could smell the sweet smelling vanilla aroma of the pack. He laughed, and asked where my protein cup was, and I said, "It's in the bottom of the bag!" He looked at it, smiled and confiscated my protein mix, just in case I somehow managed to create explosive devices or snort it I guess. I apologized for the inconvenience and explained that I carry it for lunch or for yoga and that I ran toward the stairs because my ferry leaves exactly at 9am and not a minute later and that I always run after my ferry. I think he thought I was an idiot, so he quickly packed all my items back in. I thanked him for his fine service to NYC and I ran off towards the ferry. Of course, I missed it, so I sat there waiting for the next one.

As I sat there, I realized I should probably not run in front of police officers like that and should probably carry a smaller bag. Maybe I should label my protein as well and stop wearing a long coat with a hoodie that covers my face. Or maybe I just looked like a hot mess and he thought I was up to something. Either way, I couldn't stop laughing at the situation and now I am sitting here wondering if he drank my protein shake?

God bless the men in blue.. for better or for worse, they keep us safe. I just never thought I'd look like the menacing type. :) Excellent morning adventure.

I am becoming a hippy…

Monday, March 14, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 1:13 PM
I want this outfit.


Who would've thought that New York City would turn me into a more free loving hippy than Boulder ever could? I sure didn't, and yet, I find myself falling fabulously in love with hippy/bohemian inspired ideals and fashion! ha!


First, I found this Mexicana designer and she makes me want her clothes so bad that I might be crazy enough to buy just one shirt or dress. Her name is Aida Coronado, and I secretly hope she is related to me so I can get a discount. I think Frida Kahlo shall be my inspiration this summer.. watch out!


Second, I was reading one of the blogs I follow, I love what she has to say and wanted to share some of those same thoughts and ideas with you because they strongly resonate with me. You can read her blog here… these are just excerpts…


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For the past couple years I have been battling the feeling of not knowing what I am going to do with my life, and what I am doing with my life.


Its a strange feeling, cause there are a lot of obvious pathways I could choose.


Spirituality lives inside me, though I know I don't often come across as a stereotypical blissed out super being, or talking in beautiful tongue. I respect the spirituality within, and I don't rush it. Cause I know its in there, and I know that it is perfect. I never know when I will see glimpses of it coming. I like that. Im always surprising myself. Probably cause I have no expectations of it.


In a lot of ways, I mostly just like stretching. Stretching my imagination, stretching my limbs. Its all the same, for me it symbolizes growth.


For the past 3 years, I have been trying to figure out "What I want to do with my life?"


Then somewhere in there, my intentions shifted, and It felt like more of a chore than a pleasurable experience.


Im pretty sure everyone can relate to that last statement. Whether in career or relationship. At the end of the day, you have to check in with yourself, and ask yourself: Is this really serving me?


Its OK to change your mind.


There is a part of me, that really would love to just be there for my man. To support him and love him, to travel with him, and to be the mother of his children. Success would be our kids asking mama for kale chips over Cheez-its. Success would be hours of play time, and big hugs. I sometimes get a strong feeling, that that is where my next step should be.


I am often conflicted by the whole I am a powerful woman, I have a career, I can bring in as much income as my man, etc…I make up that the whole "stay at home mom" is really not empowering, for me anyways, and that given the position I am in, would it look like I was just trying to land myself in that position? Would people say, "Yeah she was a singer, then she married a rock star and now she just quit everything and became a Mom…" Well yeah, put that way, that doesnt sound very empowering does it? We choose our own adventure, and we choose to make things mean whatever we want them to mean. I can see, I am not even there yet, and im already creating the possibility of my possibility being wrong, or not good enough. "We make things so hard..", chimes in Tricia.


Im caught in a story, and I am hung up on looking good. When really, I should just get clear with myself, and those around me.


I know I will make another record, but I don't think my goal is going to be to become Lady Gaga or anything. Ive never been super technical when it comes to music, Ive never been a super fancy guitar player. I dont know scales or chord names, Ive always been fueled by feeling.


My goal for this next record is to be authentic, to be myself, to be genuine. To share about all the things that have come up for me over the last couple years. Sometimes I feel like Ive grown so numb to a lot of music, including some of my newer material, trying to come up with something that I think someone else will want to hear, or that will sound good on the radio. Its easy to loose sight of why I started down this particular path in the first place. The work I get to do here however, is very rewarding. Its a challenge. I never thought I would get myself into such a complicated situation, especially with the one thing I have always felt has come easy for me. Ive always thought the best songs are the ones that are born from a very innocent place. A place of no expectation. A place of love. I have to let go. Why am I so scared of being successful? Its time for a little stretching…


I also know I will be a Mom someday, its something I have wanted since I was in my early 20's. I know my kids are going to be amazing. My instincts for motherhood, my undying need to tend to people, to make sure the they are safe and sound, my yearning for making sure everyone has a safe space to flourish, create, and spread their wings and fly. Combined with all that LOVE I have inside, Im gonna rule at being a Mom. Plus, I have a few good ones of my own to reference.
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I believe in what she states and I understand her struggle. Spiritually she is right on. I've been going to yoga and trying to mediate more to quiet my mind and try to help my stomach from hating itself. I love it. It's my moment to just be with me and no one else, and every now and then I'll dedicate my practice to loved ones so I try harder.


I've always known what I wanted to do and along the way I've picked up some interesting and fulfilling projects and hobbies. I realized this weekend how important it is to check in with yourself and just ask "Hey, is this working for me? Is this what I want?" and then envision what you want out of that moment, next week, life, etc. We have to check in to find our focus again. And sometimes, it's ok to "float" along, but we need to check in with ourselves.


I feel like now, more than ever, I am on the right path. I need to pass this bar and all will be well. I know that in my hearts of hearts. My hard work has paid off and I need to go all out for this semi to last chapter of my life. I have big plans coming up, which I will share next week because it is all in the planning phases, but my next venture will be one of the greatest ventures of my life, and no, I am not pregnant! Ha! Although, I will be a great mama someday, but not quite yet. Almost there, but not yet.


Be kind to yourself. Check in with yourself, then keep moving forward.

Sorry! Exciting Projects!

Thursday, March 10, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 9:13 AM


My apologies, I've been slacking. I know.

I got knocked down a bit this week with a cold, but I seem to be recovering fast. I woke up feeling absolutely awful on Tuesday but still went to work. Half way through my work day, I decided to leave because I felt awful and I could tell my work didn't want me there sniffling and coughing. So I met the husband for delicious soup dumplings then headed home. I woke up Wednesday still feeling awful after not sleeping the night before and stayed home from work. Today I feel better but still have a sore throat but feel much more energized. So I will work from home today.

I went to the stomach specialist yesterday and after waiting for almost 2 hours to speak with the Doctor, they informed me that I doesn't seem that I have H.Pylori again, my blood samples look great, I am not allergic to gluten, I don't have Crohn's disease or a tumor, so they think I might have eaten something that caused food poisoning. Great.

So, all is well in the healthy department, aside from this cold.

This past weekend I got the chance to meet up with some lady friends from Columbia law. I met them at the NLLSA conference in October and we became friends since then. One lovely lady is dating a really good friend of mine from UCLA Law which makes it even better! I forgot how much I miss my lady law friends from home. Law school is hard as is, but it truly makes a difference when you make special connections with other Latina women who are facing the similar challenges and who support and challenge you. I am glad to have re-connected with them this weekend and I hope to have brunch or dinner with them again soon. In general, we had a great discussion about the upcoming graduating Latino law graduates around the nation. We are game changers and fighters. We may be unemployed, but at least they are sticking to their values and are psyched to fight for the Latino community and other injustices that communities may face! It's a great feeling, and although many of my law friends will not be taking the NY Bar, I still feel motivated because we will be preparing for this beast together.

Lastly, Armando and I discussed the revamping of Divina Latina, Pinxe Cards and a brand spanking new Latina law blog. We will be redesigning the Divina Latina website, create a Pinxe Cards website, and I have to come up with a name for my law blog. The law blog will focus on the impact of federal and state immigration laws on the Latino community. I will have updates and resources on immigration law and procedures from around the nation. I plan to link to other immigration/migrant rights blogs and resources. I'd like to invite guest editors to write on topics that interest them as well. Now, I need to come up with a name for it. Initially I liked Justicialatina.org, but then I realized it is too close to Latino Justice from PRLDEF. So, now I am thinking of Justiciahoy.org but I'm not sure I love it. So if anyone has ideas, please let me know. :)

So there is a lot of exciting things coming and we are busy busy bees.

Have a great week everyone!

I do have a job!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 12:33 PM


Hello everyone!

So I received the call today and I will be returning to work on Monday! I will be going back to the island tomorrow for a presentation, then I decided to take Friday off. :) I mean, I'm not getting paid, so why go? Ha!

All is well here in N-Y-C! Our building hasn't caught fire yet and the weather is getting a little bit nicer and nicer. I've started to look ahead to the Bar and I'm researching study schedules so that I can plan my days accordingly. I'm actually anxious to start studying and to get this fresh hell over. I've also been careful with my stomach and I've been experimenting as to what can set it off. I have my appointment next week and they'll tell me if anything is off or out of the ordinary.

I did go for a great run yesterday on the Riverside trail and it felt great! Aside from my pace of 12 minute miles, I thought it was a great first run in NYC. I think I need to stay active to combat any stress spikes I encounter. :)

I did manage to work on some new little cards for my Pinxe Card collection, but I won't get to post them until later tonight. I am hoping to clear out some room in "my room/office" so that I can start using the desk and create a creative area for us to use. These are the items I'm looking at IKEA. Have a great week folks! More updates to come...