Now, I feel bad.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 9:02 AM

Well, we found the zombie mouse, and I will spare you the details of the condition he was in. It makes my heart so sad to wage a war against these little guys, but I don't know what other options we have, because if we do it the humane way, they keep coming in!

Also, last night, for some dumb reason, I woke up at 3:24am and heard a shrill squeek coming from upstairs. I was going to wake mando up because I thought it was two mice fighting by our bedroom door, but then I realized it might be one that got caught in the trap. I felt so awful that I couldn't sleep for awhile after that.

I really hope he is the last one, because I can't bare the sight of another one. I feel like a total jerk. Please let it be the last one.

On a much happier and less depressing note, I VOTED TODAY! Hooray! Since becoming a US Citizen, this is one of the things I was looking forward to the most. That and losing the anxiety I felt whenever I crossed any international borders because I was only a U.S. resident. I was actually very nervous, but excited. I hope my vote counts. Go Dems! Boo Buck!

The house is nowhere near packed but we've sold TONS of things! We've sold almost all the big ticket items. I am starting to get overwhelmed because even though I am packing daily, I feel that I am getting nowhere. It's very emotional to detach yourself from all your physical belongings, and at the same time, it is ridiculous how attached we become to things. For example, remember those Diesel shoes I told you about? Well, I finally gave those to a little girl whose family bought our tv and dining set. I gave her and her little sister TONS of stuff. I realized that they would have better use for it then I would. Although it's all a bit overwhelming right now, it's quite liberating to get rid of crap and just let go of it. There's something beautiful in all this chaos and it reminds me that those physical things are not what is important in life. It is the relationships we have with each other and the people we surround ourselves with.

I am getting more and more excited about the move. I think in all, I just want it to be done and overwith so I can be in NYC and working, inst

ead of moping around packing up my life. I was informed yesterday of where I was going to be working, and honestly, I couldn't be more thrilled! I will be placed in Governors Island in NYC! This island is awesome, and I am excited to explore the haunted history of the island! There is a castle and an old fort on the island that are being restored, so if I am lucky, I might get to work on these projects as well!

The days are going by fast and I am sure I'll be an emotional wreck next week, but so far, I am ok. I apologize now for sounding like a zombie in my blog. I sleep, but in the mornings when I wake up, I feel like I got hit by a bus. :)

Have a great day!

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No Time to Waste

Sunday, October 31, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 4:19 PM

I have come to the reality that I only have 12 frantic days left in Colorado. I don't know how I am going to get it all done, but I imagine I will. This is kinda difficult timing as I take my MPRE (Ethics) exam this Saturday, so this week I will be studying, packing and working at the same time! I feel calm for the most part and I can finally sleep because I am usually exhausted by the end of the day. J More great news is that I haven't started to eat my emotions yet. (Yet is the keyword!)

I also have to tell you that somewhere around my home is a mouse that is somehow slightly deformed and possibly not dead. You see, it hit the trap and SURVIVED! I told you these are like ninja-israeli trained mice! I secretly think that this is why I can't sleep. I think that he is hiding somewhere in my house just waiting for me to fall asleep so he can eat my face or dump poison down my throat. Just the thought of it freaks me out. And then I thought about all the mice we've killed and how bad I felt because I wondered if there were ghost mice haunting the house and that is the pitter-patter I hear sometimes upstairs. I don't know. My BFF Daniela recommended a much more humane approach to the killing. She recommended that I capture them in a humane trap, then take them down to the Cherry Creek and drown them. J She's an idiot, and plus, that would be much worse for me.

Ever since I was a child, I've always had this ridiculous fear of revenge by small animals or inanimate objects like Barbies and dolls. When I was younger I would go to my grandmother's ranch in Parral, Chihuahua where I would play ALL DAY in the fields and the mountains with my cousins. There were these horrific brown toads all over the hills that made them look like rocks. My cousins would tell me to never step on a frog or else it would find me in the middle of the night and pee in my mouth. Sure enough, one day I stepped on that ugly sonofa..., and that whole night I was petrified! I swear to this day that I heard their footsteps as they crept closer to my bed, but I didn't think they could climb up, which was a huge relief. Although, I guess they could've jumped if they wanted to. Another fear that was instilled me since I was a little girl, was to not play with your dolls after the sun went down. My cousins told me that if you did, they would come to life and scare you in the middle of the night. I was never much of a doll player, but my sister was and I would get nervous as the sun started to set, and she was still playing with her stupid dolls. So, as the sun set, I grabbed all her dolls; duct taped or tied them up and I threw them on top of the closet shelf; closed the door and placed a chair in front of the door with books stacked on top of it. This strategy worked for me since I never got attacked by those stupid dolls.

Wish me luck as I pack up, I hope that I don't find the zombie mouse somewhere behind the couch or in a shoe. GROSS!!

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i love him

Thursday, October 28, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 8:42 PM

I just found him and Shazammed him. I'm in love. Check him out. And if you already knew about him, then you are that much cooler than i am. I had a better post but then I took a shot of patron, tylenol pm, and sleepy time tea, so I am slowly losing consciousness and logic. Just kidding, I only took tylenol pm and sleepytime tea. :) No patron. That's for Saturday, which by the way, I still don't know what to be. boo.

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These Lights Will Make You Feel Brand New....

Wednesday, October 27, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 2:28 PM

The adventure is just beginning and I am excited to carry you all along with me I take on this new venture in my life. I must admit, I never thought I would live outside of Denver (except Mexico) but now that it's happening, I am truly excited. Nervous and excited. Woke up a bit sick today and I am not sure if its because I ate White Folk chile or if I am just so nervous that my stomach is acting up again. Either way, I had to stay home because of it. boo.

Super psyched to be leaving the mouse house and meeting their cousins the rats. Although, someone from New York needs to assure me that they don't come into your home. They are just in the streets.

We are starting to plan out the logistics of everything as this is moving very fast and we only have 2 1/2 weeks to get this done. We'll see what happens along the way and again thanks to all of you who helped us with your positive energy and thoughts. I will be posting later today but I just had to post this video because it gives me goosebumps. Or, at least, I hope that is what's giving me the goosebumps. ;)

ciao- quotablecards.com

(I need to give them a shoutout so they don't sue me. Plus, I really do love their cards.)

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Start Spreading the News…

Tuesday, October 26, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 10:32 AM

I'll give you a hint and again, Maktub.

Thank you to everyone who offered a kind word, said a prayer, and sent out that positive energy for Mando and I. We felt the love from our family and our friends and we are eternally grateful to everyone who helped make this happen.

Thank you, gracias, guten tag, merci, thank you!

Armando has been offered the position at Urban Arts Partnership

and we will leave for NYC in less than 21 days.

We are scared, we are nervous, but we are so excited to start this adventure

and this next chapter of our lives.

This is just a true testament to the power of positive thinking and the power that preparation and opportunity have when they collide.

I will keep you informed in the next couple of days as to the madness that is about to ensue our lives, but I am thrilled and I am thankful that he has found his calling, passion and dream job. (Next to being my husband of course!) :)

Again, thank you for all the prayers and excitement.

it helped alot.

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Gratitude

Monday, October 25, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 10:31 PM

When it comes to life the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude. Live and love each day.

it's amazing to me how life sometimes work out. Maktub.

Maktub is an alchemist term (arabic word) which literally means it is written. From mystical point of view, it points to the fact that whatever happens is already known to the One. It signifies that Destiny exists. It points finger to the fact that everything is already known to God.

I consider myself a catholic but I mostly talk to Our Lady of Guadalupe. I feel she's my homie and she grounds me in my life. I also feel that my grandmother is with me most of the time reminding me to press on and stay calm in life.

Yesterday, a dear friend of mine lost her stepmother and little brother in a fatal car accident. As I sat there and heard the news, I was surrounded by my loving mother, aunt, cousins and little sister. I took that moment to take in how blessed I was in my life, and although life sometimes throws your curveballs, it's always temporary. There are always defeats, but it is temporary.

Today, I was thinking of my friend all day and I found myself in such a difficult position in regards to me feelings and my thoughts. I was thinking of destiny and the direction my life was heading and how good I felt, but then I thought of her loss and wondered what the purpose was for that or why fate had worked out in that way. I got mad and felt an anger that I hadn't felt in a long time. The last time I felt this angry with life was when my grandmother got really sick. I couldn't understand why "God" would allow another human to suffer so much after all the love and worship she had provided to him all her life. I still can't really comprehend those questions and perhaps it's something that there is no answer to. Maybe in life there just mistakes as well. I don't know.

Point is that yesterday and today I took the time out of my crazy life to be grateful for all the beautiful and wonderful blessings and people in my life. You never know what can happen. Don't hold grudges. Forgive. You might get hit by a car or choke on a pickle, I don't know, but we need to be more grateful. I think gratitude is one of the most wonderful prayers you can say, and if all you say is "thank you" to someone every day, than you should be happy that you were able to be gracious in that moment. We are never to busy to be grateful, so I urge you that everyday, just stop for 5 seconds and give thanks to life for where you are now, for your family, for whatever you want. Just be grateful.

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The Hardest Thing a Girl Must Do... sigh

Sunday, October 24, 2010 - Posted by Intellectual Elegance at 2:04 PM

I am happy to report that I did not pee my pants this weekend. At least not at the Haunted House.

So far today I have not been very productive. I don't know why I feel like I have to be productive as well on the weekends, but I do. I did wash the dishes so that is a plus, but now I am sitting here staring at the pile of clothes I need to fold. boo.

Saturday was much more productive as I started the laundry (which now sits before me) and I decided to try and get rid of old items. This is one of the hardest things women and girls everywhere face. Every year we look at our wardrobes, shoes, and bags and we must decide, which one of you are staying and which one of your are cut from the fashion and love lineup. I hate it. I pride myself in collecting the perfect shirts, shoes, handbags and to get rid of any of them is like cutting off a limb. Although, I need to be realistic because I have items and shoes that I have NEVER worn, and it's been like 5-7 years. There are even some items I bought that I thought I would make "cool" and that has never happened. Also, thanks to Daniela, I have to reconsider items that I know will make her laugh and pee her pants if she would see me wear them. I have a motto for this and it's called "WWDS: What Would Daniela Say." I have to think of this especially when I buy sandals because my long middle toe, AKA Darla, tends to get really excited and pop out of the sole of the shoe. Stupid Darla. Supposedly a lot of people from Juarez have a long middle toe because the Tarahumara have long middle toes so they can run fast and long distances. But I can do neither, so that is a lie. liars.

I started out with my purses and handbags. Dear Lord I love handbags. I realized that I buy the same type of style. I have 2 brown bags that are almost identical, and 2 black bags that are almost identical. Ridiculous. I also have the bags that every proud, self-loving Latina must have. They are the bags that are probably made from the shirts of women in Guatemala and woven by the indigenous communities of Chiapas. Otherwise known as our "Chicana" bags. I love them. I even have a giant Virgen de Guadalupe Straw handbag. I love it. My

favorite ones are one that my BFF C-po got me in Peru and one that I bought when I had my store, Tonalli. I love them.

One big problem I encountered is that you can't get rid of any items that you have a sentimental attachment to. Unfortunately for me, I am sentimentally attached to everything I own. I think it is because when I was younger my family couldn't afford the super nice clothes that other kids wore, so my parents would give us hand me downs that my dad would get at work or find at work during his trash shifts. I didn't mind. My awesome mom always made us look like super stars. I had one Mickey Mouse shirt that had been torn in half, and my grandmother sewed up and for me it was as good as new. I think that it is for these reasons that I love my clothes and I pride myself on dressing well and in having the clothes that I want. In high school I couldn't afford Abercrombie and Fitch but I loved Polo and would find Polo stuff at Ross. I still love Ross. Sorry, I digress... the point is I LOVE MY STUFF!!

After almost 2 hours of deliberation on just my handbags ( I got rid of 5), I moved on to some of my clothes and shoes. Shoes I think are harder than the clothes, because I feel like if you get rid of one pair, you will regret it when you have the perfect outfit and then you realize that you donated the perfect shoes that would go with them. I sat there and after an hour of deliberation, I got rid of another 6 pairs of shoes. :( Mando wanted me to get rid of my Diesel shoes because I never wear them, but I can't because he bought those for me, and I am attached to them! :) Maybe in a few weeks I won't be but I can't seem to throw away anything he's bought me. Which in hindsight might be bad because I think these are the beginning characteristics of a baby packrat/hoarder. Hmm, I might have to reconsider those Diesel shoes.

At the end of the day, I got rid of two huge bags of items that I will take to our local Goodwill or thrift store, but my closet still looks huge. I am probably going to do this again next weekend. I hope that I can be better at saying goodbye then.

On another note: I hope to have good news tomorrow, but I am not sure. I have yet to hear back from that amazing 20 minute interview (boo) but we'll see what this week brings.

Enjoy this video of "Zapatos Viejos" by the amazing Gloria Trevi. She still reminds me of my sister.

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