Give up your sense of entitlement. – Nobody is entitled to anything in this world. We are all equal. We breathe the same air. We get what we give. We get what we earn.
I am having a really tough time getting through this statement. I am trying to find that place of gratitude and appreciation for the opportunity to work on the report, but today, I just don't know if I can really go there.
As you all know, I have been working on the Final Report to Congress on the National Museum of the American Latino. I love this project and I love my director and the commission. I have been in DC for the last month, traveling back and forth between NYC and DC. I am tired, traveling disrupts my schedule, but I do it, because I am committed to this report and because I appreciate my boss.
One of the most exciting aspects of this project, especially when I came on as the assistant to the Project Director, was the opportunity to possibly attend the White House 5 de Mayo celebration. But today, I was told that there was probably no chance of me attending, but someone else, who is a hard worker too, will be attending. My problem is that all her "work" has been completed by me. I'm the one who deals with contracts, schedules, management, etc. She just has the title.
So, again, I am being left out of a vital part of the project. I am annoyed, I am upset.
I have worked incredibly hard on this project and have taken every single responsibility that they have given me. I have worked late nights, early mornings, trying to make sure that this report is perfect. I was hoping that what I have given of my time and dedication, would earn me a place at the White House reception, and more importantly, appreciation from my directors. I know my director here in DC appreciates me, but I know that my former director in Denver, doesn't. I think she takes me for granted and still I am the one dealing with contracts, modifications, contractors, etc. Fantastic.
Once again, I feel jealous, defeated, and deceived. Maybe I shouldn't feel entitled- but in this case, I worked tirelessly to make everything seem effortless for everyone.
I'll still continue to perform above and beyond because I am a professional, and I will not complain about this to my director or anyone else. I will be patient and again find gratitude in myself to know that I received the opportunity to work on such an epic project. All will be well.
But today, I can drink my haterade and be a hater. I'll be fine again tomorrow, but for today, let me wallow in my haterade.
